Manual for the Budding

Disappointingly I have to consider that Robert Monroe wasn't all that honest. I still maintain that he spoke some truth in Journeys Out of the Body (the only book of his I've read so far), that's indisputable and demonstrable, so... Beyond what I know, I don't know how far that truth reaches. Does his second and third book move further away from the truth? Was he a government tool? He evidently had links to United States Military Intelligence. Was it simply a case of compliance? Did he have to mix his truth with their disinformation so he could get his books published?

I'm suspicious of the fact that he was able to get his work published, particularly with some of the subject matters he was disclosing, and for it to do successfully, typically amongst the growing New Age movement, as if it was all by design. He was like one of the forefathers of this new age, whether he meant to be or not.



Robert Monroe, an honest man?

And still I can't speak favourably enough of Journeys Out of the Body. It's compelling and so revealing, but in many ways it is esoteric rather than exoteric. It offered insights, great and small, personal, comprehensive, experiential... quite profound. Predominantly it confirmed my own beliefs and allowed me to re-evaluate past experiences. It also provided answers to questions I'd had, albeit theoretical and/or temporary.

To my mind, what Robert Monroe had to say deals with an extensive number of topics. I made connections where there may not necessarily be any, however it was my discernment that there is. He also seemed to write honestly and objectively, making it clear if he wasn't certain of something and openly acknowledging the conscious mind's interpretive manner. His writing is not heavy with New Age-babble, in fact quite the opposite, it's apparent that he has based his research on the 'great thinkers' before him and was more than a little familiar with Jung's work, although some of his ideas can be evidenced as giving rise to this new breed of spirituality. Being that it was the 1950s when Robert first began to experience this phenomena, there was very little acceptance in Western religions and philosophies, so he looked to Eastern religions which were more encouraging. In his search he also discovered the existence of an underground, not limited to the United States but infiltrating all of Western civilisation. When I read that I was sure he was referring to Freemasonry, each descriptive sentence seemed to build upon the last and validate this, however there were a couple or so points by the end of his veiled illustration that didn't match up. As far as I'm aware he never made it clear what this 'underground' was, though I assume he was referring to a group with alternative views who took refuge from a condemning mainstream society - this may well have been the emerging New Age movement. I've not been able to find any evidence that he was a member of a Masonic brotherhood, only that he had connections to people who were high degree Masons. If he considered there to be no basis for Christianity in his experiences - which could be seen as pushing the globalist agenda - he was equally as explicit with his recognition of man's history, of how necessities like food or sexuality have been manipulated again and again to exercise control over the mass populace.

What's the deal with religion anyway? Part of me thinks that religion may have been started or - in other cases - infiltrated by the elite and now they're pulling the rug from under our feet. Those devout followers are holding tightly, believing it's a sign of the end times and their scripture has prophesised right (which may have been played like a script by those pulling the strings), their bond is stronger than ever, thus they're dependent on the system; while others find relief in what seems to be an end to the bondage, so they gladly accept what's offered in its place. A new religion.

Anyway, so Robert subtly undermines archaic religion and also gives some potentially controversial views. Basically, we've second bodies (souls) and in the 'second state' (out-of-body), in terms of sexuality, we come together in a magnetic charge, literal attraction, which is loosely compared to the physical sensation of sexual tension and physical act of sexual intimacy. The difference is that in the second state there is no male-female interpenetration and sensuality is entirely absent, instead we collide, our metaphysical bodies become one with the ecstasy and all that. Fine, I can totally envisage that, in fact it makes a lot of sense and tots a few things up in my head. In the second state, sexes don't seem to be an issue - gender seems to remain - but sexuality, as we know it, does not. He doesn't draw attention to homosexuality, not unequivocally, though it might be implied. That's also fine, I can accept that. It's when you begin to contemplate the full scope of the concept that it presents some complications. When sexuality in the physical is an echo of that which occurs in the metaphysical, Robert construed this as indicative of mankind's misdirection. He never addresses how second state intimacy applies to children or family. It's a bit of a grey area. Obviously he can't be suggesting we do something to resolve this possible misdirection, can he?

Aside from the occasional thing, Robert Monroe and his initial book Journeys Out of the Body are honourable and convincing. He outwardly recognises and acknowledges the corruption and control of the masses, though I dare say this is done in a heedful manner. Was he genuinely outspoken or was this only to meet the expectations of the counterculture?


U.S. military officers and psychic spies have been trained at The Monroe Institute in Faber, Virginia.

The Monroe Institute's current Director of Technology and former President, Skip Atwater, is previous head of psychic intelligence unit at Fort Meade, Maryland.

Joe McMoneagle, U.S. Army's 'Remote Viewer', married one of Robert Monroe's step-daughters, Nancy. He was one of the original officers of the top-secret program now known as the Stargate Project. After working for the military, Joe became a speaker at The Monroe Institute. He is also President of his remote viewing business Intuitive Intelligence Applications, Inc.

Nancy McMoneagle is the current Executive Director and President of The Monroe Institute and Co-Owner and Vice-President of Intuitive Intelligence Applications, Inc.


The connections to the government are various, but that doesn't certify that Robert Monroe was in collusion with them. According to Robert Bruce (wiki: a mystic author, best known for his own studies on the out-of-body experience), when The Monroe Institute was started it received a visit from government officials who warned them to back off on astral projection, particularly in proving it to the general population. I'm unconvinced though, I think the government knew fully well what was going on and oversaw much of its development. As to where Robert Monroe comes into it, I think it's unlikely that he would have been permitted to release such information without substantial misinformation mixed in, especially in his follow-up books. But who knows. Nevertheless, fascinating reading and fascinating conjecture...

What Is NASA Up To? And Who Was Robert Monroe, Really?

Astral Traveller, Robert A. Monroe Describing His Out Of Body Experiences - The CIA Would Establish Ties To The Monroe Institute - One Must Wonder If This May Have Had Something To Do With The Cancer That Monroe's Daughter, Laurie, Died From In Her Early 50s?

More Than I Can Chew

What have I done? This is a mammoth task I have undertaken. I'm not going to give this up though, I committed myself to this as soon as I became aware of the atrocities. Right, I need to sort my information overload into the cabinet of curiosities. The layout and colour scheme of the blog needs a desperate makeover, I'm going to stick a wig on it. For future readers, the colour scheme at the time of writing this was a penguin-rolling-down-a-hill sort of colour and surprisingly not very fun. You'd exit the blog and move onto greener pastures with white font still emblazoned on the pupils of your eyes. I want something light, because right now it's like a dingy website for dingy activities in dingy bedrooms. That was never the intention. Learning is fun, right? Yeah, is fun. So I need to get a good breeze going through here, appealing atmosphere that bananas would be fond of.

I'm going to start to archive some of my symbolic experiences. They will be found further back, dated accurately (where possible) or approximately; dates that precede the emergence of this blog in May 2014.

I'm also attempting to read three books at once, which is never a good idea. My brain feels like it's about to explode and in the air the words will waltz together and I'll be saying, 'No, no, don't get mixed up'. I am shuffling along with Richard Sauder's Kundalini Tales, properly assigning myself to Self-Hypnosis and Scientific Self-Suggestion by William J. Ousby, and apparently I thought it'd be a good idea to re-read Grace Slick's memoir Somebody to Love?

It's not a good idea. I will have to take to reading one at a time. Conversely, it's the very worst idea to not read at all. If I'm not reading, I'm not able to write as fluently or unwind.

Providing I get on with it, which I have to really, then I'll write anything applicable here. That's if I don't get fixated on the shiny, shiny cover of GS's memoir. Afterwards I aim to dive into Break On Through (Jim Morrison biography), as it seems somehow logical. And, as if that wasn't enough, a friend is expecting me to read Bound Together (The Libertines unofficial biography). I'm going to have a meltdown. It's not about reading this, reading that, sailing through, eyes closed, nailing pages to the wall; what my friend doesn't realise is that there are special ways of doing these things, a combination, an order which makes them most effective. That order isn't set in stone either, it depends on the distortion of space and time. And all of this damn research I've done in almost two years, a rough estimate with the calculator, an average of 10 hours spent each day, that's around 7300 hours of information, all spiky and untameable, which I'm trying to put into words and convey, while still consuming more information every new day. And with a new job on the horizon, it's only going to get trickier. Of course, I will find a way.

Can We Have An Ice Cream?!

I meant to post this in June, oh well. Thanks goes to Bethan Graham-Dolman for having a keen eye and noticing this at the side of the road, recognising its worth enough to take a picture and allowing me to share it here.

Somewhere in Wiltshire there is a child, blissfully unaware that their drawing is now floating around the world wide web. Not only is it incredible to behold for all its charm and magic, but also for the spirit it carries. It's a simple lesson of cause and effect.

'Can we have an ice cream?!'

This child named Molly lives in Oldbury Prior, however the ice cream van doesn't seem to be stopping there, he's in nearby Trinity Road. Molly asks (directly or indirectly) that the ice cream van turn into Oldbury Prior and from that day forward her wish is granted and she is very grateful.

Ask and you shall receive. Just as you're entitled to ask something of someone, you also have the capacity to ask of the universe.

We are crafting our reality through the thoughts that we have. Our thoughts can hold us back or set us free, we just need to realise this and be gifted the desire to change. We have the potential to be as magicians - are we mastering our magic?

Whatever our thoughts, feelings, emotions, we are constantly giving off signals that are responsible for the individual realities we experience. We have to make sure our minds are clear - free of clutter - before we truly wish to manifest our dreams and deepest desires; we may still have limiting beliefs and judgements of ourselves that are working against our hopes of achieving these.

When we were children we saw no limits, everything was possible, everything was magical. We brought our dreams to life. That wasn't an illusion, that was real; the illusion was what was given to us in place of our natural ability to feel awe-inspired.


As Bethan said when she shared the photo:

 

The ice-cream can be metaphorical for the most colourful sparkling reality that you could imagine.. where everything is glowing, bright and beautiful. The ice-cream van is simply the carrier of the goods, you know the Ice-cream van due to its theme-tune that sends out the signal that the ice-cream is near. Everyone knows the ice-cream van tune, yet if you had never heard that tune before you would not know that the ice-cream is near. We simply need to tune into the song of our highest most expanded magical reality. Our soul-tune, the frequency of our heart which is connected to the cosmos. The Universe can have the best things for us, if we only took the time to listen. Go out in nature, be silent in a field, listen to your soul and hear what song it sings?? Are we receiving the signals we most want to tune into??

I like how the other road in the storyboard happens to be called Trinity Road. The word 'trinity' derives from the Latin trinus which means 'threefold'. As in the Wiccan Rule of Three (also known as Three-fold Law or Law of Return), that which you put out comes back three times as numerous.

When her wish comes true, Molly expresses her happiness, her appreciativeness. To feel a sincere gratitude to the universe is necessary. And it's important that your mind be cleansed of defeatist attitudes. And with that, you focus on manifesting your dreams into reality. Every thought is a wish, every word a spell. In many ways you are a prophet of your own future, so make sure it's composed of everything good you've ever wished for.

Words of Elsewhere

Again, I've woken to words put in my mind. As far as I know this has only been occurring since early last year. Sometimes in the morning I'll be in the state between waking and sleep, where the subconscious and conscious are in clear communication, and I'll be going over things in a bit of an internal monologue, grasping some data or information, something that seems to make good sense. Then as soon as I recognise myself doing this and become fully conscious, I'll lose completely what I was thinking of. I'm sure it still registers in my memory; doesn't pass over to conscious and instead remains in the subconscious; technically new information, though possibly I'm expected to discover/uncover it in due time and through my physical experiences.

Other times I'll bring across some information and I'll have the distinct feeling that it's a rough translation of the actual information - a sense, an interpretation, or comparable words.

Rarer still, I'll have what I can only describe as an aphorism come to me.

Today though, today was somewhat different. I got up, no time to waste, another busy Saturday. After a couple of minutes of being awake I recalled a line I'd been going over in my mind while in that state between waking and sleep; here and there. It was as if I'd been told by somebody. I'd been told and I was mulling over this one line, thoughtfully considering it:

'The ancients believed that all life was based on light spectrums...'

I'm clueless as to what it means, it's not something I've heard or read about before, so I'm not sure it has any bearing at all. Which ancients would they be? I instantly think of the Ancient Egyptians - I know right, there's more to life than Ancient bloody Egypt, but... try telling that to those who run the show! Obviously knowledge has been suppressed, their knowledge means it's their power, and a lot of the enlightenment seems to originate from that period in time; hence the all-seeing eye (the Eye of Providence) which represents them whilst the profane are kept in ignorance. Anyway, the word was distinctly 'ancients' and I feel the sentence to be pretty much accurate as when it was balanced between the conscious and subconscious. Perhaps 'spectrums' could be substituted for 'spectrum', a couple of word changes and additions made, but really this is as it came to me. If it's been 'logically reasoned with' by the conscious mind, then there's not much I can do about that now. Soon I wish to lower the barrier between minds through self-hypnosis to allow for better recall and control, and to do that they must work in conjunction with each other.

Searching the keywords in a search engine gets the most tangible results, of course, but even they are few. The most notable seems to be 'ancients' and 'light spectrum' leads to Electromagnetic Spectrum, which I'm not familiar with (yet). Did Ancient Humans Have Knowledge of the Electromagnetic (EM) Spectrum? And another site with an article titled 'Electromagnetism and the Ancients' which disappointingly doesn't load. There are a few articles. If this is relevant to the information I was given I'm not totally sure - I've got some reading to do - but 'light spectrum' does lead to this Electromagnetic Spectrum result. Alternatively, it could be a bunch of random words that my mind vomited up. And even if the ancients did believe that all life was based on light spectrums, it doesn't mean they were right, does it!

Sun-Dried Raison D'être

I'm still trying to get a feel for my writing style on here, I think it's undependable or it depends on my mood... which is undependable! I wouldn't want to turn anyone away solely because of ambiguity, it's just I've always leant towards cryptic writing and this is quite a contrast to strip it back and aim to be concise. Practice should make some kind of abstract perfect, although might miss the mark and sag down into post-perfect or pre-perfect... If I had the capacity - there are only two of me - I'd write a few times a day. What happens is I'll see something and want to share it, but then if I don't get around to it, it goes beyond natural and into feeling obligatory, laboured. I have to wait until it seems to click again. It's the same as owning the equivalent of a miniature library, books everywhere, but I haven't read them all yet. There'll be some from a few years ago that might have been fruitful for the time, I don't know, but it is the way it is. Once I miss the invisible cut-off point, I just have to wait until the opportunity arises again.

I'm trying to provide a variety of insights before I go back and continually expand on each subject. I've been researching since September 2012, when I had my realisation (what most people call their 'awakening'), so it's a lot to go through everything I've learnt so far and that which I'm continuing to learn in real time and then condense it all. This is as much about archiving my findings and thought processes and making sense of my reality, as it is about sharing the information with you. The comment function beneath each post is there for you to give your thoughts, opinions and knowledge and to encourage discussion. Because of those fizzy spam bots, I've set it so that I moderate any comments and I'll do that sharpish, but if you want to come in here and give some verbal abuse, act like a prat, you're most welcome to - I'll consider them, thoughtfully... hmmm, and publish them so everyone can see how cute you are when you're angry.

I write in the style of doom n' gloom. Nah, the whole idea has been to not whip up another ghoulish fever, there are enough bog-standard blogs in that style as is. And what have I done? What has this become? Just another fear-based dot com. No it hasn't and never will. I don't preach fear. Praise the dawn chorus, hallelujah!

Rearranging the Table

Actually, what spiritual experiences aren't mystical? I think by their nature encounters with the divine are mystical, otherwise something is missing. Religion is just a neat little package or product to keep the people happy; it's a skimmed version of the whole truth. Divided up, some truths here, some truths there, but all stemming from the same place. Those miracles and touched-by-the-holy-spirit orgies? Mystical. Those dreams and those visions? Mystical. All mystical, but with distortions and interpretations and corruptions. We're more lost now than we ever were, intentionally so, strung out, strung along. Tribes and entheogens, closer to what is.

When you look for meaning, what do you find? All is mystical, that which reaches out. Nihilism is looking in the wrong places, looking around and seeing the material realm and nothing beyond that, nothing in the folds between. I felt the nihilism myself at times through adolescence. When concerned only with the physicality of the world, it's easy to get carried away with the misery. Nature provides the mystical, you just have to be clean enough to receive the indications. I know this much - last time I had clear and personally profound experiences was last summer, quite a multitude, but gradually I've been absorbed into a reality of addictions and stealing so I can keep my habits going, a host of other things as well, a host to other things... It comes back to cause and effect again, how negativity breeds negativity and vice versa. I've had very little contact with anybody, physically or metaphysically. I've not had many dreams, certainly no vivid dreams that jolt me awake and stay imprinted in my mind for longer. Symbolism elsewhere or in the waking state, not that I can recall. So you have to live well if you expect to be treated well. It's also good to make sacrifices (non-human/animal), such as removing many of the materials that wall you in. The more distractions you take out of your life, it's like removing bricks from a wall, the clearer you begin to see and view the world for what it really is. You'll have a mental clarity, newfound appreciation.

Essentially we're all seeking the same understanding, but some of us just choose to avoid any form of organised religion along the way. It's empowering not relying on an institution to guide you in prayer, worship or meditation. And I feel there's nothing typically wrong with the mystical or mysticism, it's how one uses or abuses the knowledge as ever. Christians are clutching at straws in these end days, that's all it is. They're trying to maintain authority where there really is none, it's not their place to do so and it never was. The real authority has other plans now. Different control systems for different times, nothing more - just as New Age has its purpose, just as the satanic undertones of popular culture will guide and steer society now. It best achieves the aims of the bloodthirsty meathead mafia at the top, it's a perfect vehicle for them, it's the getaway. The nice little indiscreet. But it's not over yet. Wanna know what I think? I think everyone needs to loosen up, take a psychedelic mushroom and have an inherently good fuck, sí?

I jest.


Kind of.

Follow Your Heart

In the preface, Richard Sauder refers to reality as the 'reality game' in which we're all players. It's a competitive world, that's for sure. Not easy for those of us who don't wish to compete. It's like an extended lesson of Physical Education. Blood sports day - no I can't, I forgot my kit! Not good enough, get in the arena!

I've entertained the idea that we may be plugged in, tuned in, projected into this system - not unlike a computer simulation, yes, something like what is shown in The Matrix (which I haven't seen for years and years and personally am not interested to). Of note, the Wachowskis also co-directed a film called Cloud Atlas and are directing a new film titled Jupiter Ascending, both of which seem to involve themes of body/soul/energy harvesting. Imagine we are on another plane of existence and we've agreed to come here, everything was agreed to beforehand, we were wired up to machines... wouldn't that make the most sense, provide the most answers upon dying/waking from this experience? Maybe the one rule is that no outside intervention is allowed, the simulation has to be allowed to pan out, even if things get out of control or there are glitches in the system. What if other beings elsewhere could hack into this 'reality', hijack it and use it for their own gain? Altogether it's not something I believe, just something I've considered.

The reality game. Boot camp. Mind, body and soul training. Here for educational purposes and/or hedonistic pursuits.

We're here to learn, whatever it might be that we each learn - even if it's a plan on how to escape this social circle! I think it's quite true that this is a meeting of heaven and hell, life is what you make it. We either accept it or we are tormented by it - that rests in our hands.

We mustn't live in the past or the future, otherwise we miss our chance in the present to do something worthwhile. We should live in the moment. We should, yet some of us are determined to figure out why we're here and what it all means, I know I am. I'm not going to rest until I reach a better understanding of the situation; obviously I want to keep busy, it's confusing and at times painful not knowing why this is happening.

Kundalini is the energy that purportedly resides at the base of the spine according to Yogic philosophy, it lies dormant, coiled like a serpent, until awakened. Chapter one of Kundalini Tales, the first few lines made me raise my eyebrows incredulously. Richard Sauder recalls his kundalini awakening or experience on this occasion in 1992, when a male voice gleefully proclaimed "Party hearty!" He lived alone at the time, so there was no simple explanation for the voice, but it was immediately followed by a short, intense kundalini-energised episode. It's absurd, what kind of an individual would say something like that? It's very strange, but to be honest I know that many of my own experiences have been unusual and would obviously be regarded as such by others. It's just not a normal thing to say, nor would you expect to hear it. Did the individual behind the disembodied voice not consider that his words might disturb or frighten someone? Was there not a more thoughtful way of 'introducing' the kundalini experience? Clearly it didn't worry Sauder, but someone else could be expected to react differently. Perhaps 'it' knew that Sauder was mentally and spiritually prepared, as he'd been fascinated for years by the kundalini and had made efforts to activate it. It was a gleeful voice, so presumably that's a good sign.

What I'm having to reckon with is a mix of the occult (that which is hidden, concealed) and what Christianity has to say on the matter (being currently the most prevalent religion in the Western world). They may both be right. I was reading Christian views on mysticism, how they believe kundalini awakening or 'third eye' opening, for example, to be influenced by demonic forces. I think it's more likely to be both positive and negative forces that one is subjected to. Rather than completely abandoning occult study, one should proceed with careful consideration - knowing the potential risks and acting responsibly, as activation of chakra points provides a channel for all kinds of forces. I suppose that if you open yourself to the light, you're also susceptible to the darkness as well.

Richard Sauder at his present understanding (when Kundalini Tales was written and published in 1998) believes the kundalini not to be God, but possibly a servant of God; a sort of archangel. I don't know enough about it yet, but was under the impression that it is an aspect of the soul - what with the chakra points and all - and therefore corresponding to the celestial in that sense - a personalised form of. Enough speculation though, I shall have to see for myself.

Can of Worms

The last thing I should probably do is express doubt on here, as that's often viewed as a weakness and it's really important to maintain vision or focus when working with a medium like this. But I'm going to accept it as part of the natural course of soul-searching, rather than deny the emotion - I guess you have to expect to draw a blank from time to time.

These are some thoughts I'm dealing with recently, which are magnified tonight, and by divulging them perhaps it will make them dissipate or help me to process them.

I'm experiencing a crisis of faith, though I know it is temporary. It's a catalyst for resolution; about picking apart beliefs before reconstruction with the intention of strengthening them. Frequently I ask myself if I'm delusional, I stop for a moment to consider what I'm doing, but this never persists for more than a minute; I quickly remember that there is too much evidence to the contrary which proves the reality of such atrocities. All one has to do is look. These minor periods of doubt are a necessary measure to demonstrate to the self that a level of rationality is preserved, likely a defence mechanism, not to be disregarded.

Religion causes internal and external conflict. Religion is not something I follow, yet still it's at odds with my beliefs. This may have its merits, as it serves to deprecate or condemn practices which may not be so trustworthy. Religion was started innocently enough, a yearning within us all?

I realise I've opened a can of worms with this pursuit of mine. Sometimes I experience moments where I'm unable to see a practical way out of this, extensive as it is, a series of images, a collage of screaming mouths beneath a strobe light.

I watched some archive footage online (Robert Monroe's Out of Body Experiences), he seems honest and admits that he started the experiments for selfish reasons, wanting to better understand his condition, but a lot of what he says seems confused, he falters often, he desperately wants to provide the answers. This is a man who was really no better for his research by the end, that's the feeling I had. Journeys Out of the Body is still a profound book upon first read-through, I can't dismiss that, whereas the footage is from 1992, which would make Bob Monroe about 76, and what he had to say didn't sit well with me. Maybe it's my fault, jumping from his early experiences to his later and trying to comprehend a man who has been through what he has - I imagine as Far Journeys and Ultimate Journey go, they'll touch upon what he talks about. Maybe he wasn't able to disclose particular information, maybe he's deliberately vague, perhaps it's salesmanship - to encourage people to seek out his books and products. First and foremost he was a businessman, who just happened to have these mystical experiences, which is why I was sceptical when I began his book. No matter what, it was a successful business venture. Either way, someone out there knows the potential that exists within us and decides to profit from that, because many of the experiences I can vouch for. Robert's explanations in the video are overcomplicated, didn't seem believable, but then this complexity is to be expected when looking into the unknown. He spoke of 'imaginary' friendships with entities (or energies), without coming across like a total kook, but the interactions as he describes them I found to be questionable. Were these 'astral' experiences, or did he start to confuse hallucinations for reality as time went on? Not to undermine the bloke's intelligence, it just has to be asked. Were these beings of light or beings of false light; was he led astray?

This is where Christianity affects/concerns me, the claims of all mystical experiences being deceptive outside of Jesus' teachings. Everything becomes so confused and diluted. Who would want to follow Christianity (or any religion for that matter)? Even if they were true, why should I want to suck up to that image of God? That's the extent of what I see, too often the followers are sycophantic and I can't for one moment believe that any divine being is going to be worthy of that. I could not serve something like that. I reject the ego-centric God.

There are some reliable ideas or principles throughout most religion, or a reminder of what not to do when they turn fanatical. Perhaps Christianity is right, perhaps mysticism is a trap - the apple as a lure - the search for knowledge/enlightenment - activation of the pineal gland and awakening of the kundalini...

Still, religion alienates, divides.

Through all of the societal corruption, could this still be a path to evolution? Can the corruption be forgiven, accepted as implicit in human nature? Is it a requirement to break emotion down, is that the way of the future? Nietzsche's ubermensch (superman). Sterility.

Half-Gospel

It hasn't changed my life, but it's working to - it's been instrumental to me and there couldn't have been a better year to read it.



Journeys Out of the Body was first published in 1971 and Robert Monroe had been having these 'second state' (out-of-body/astral) experiences and taking notes since the 1950s, so at the time this was released to the public it would have been very much a fringe interest - can imagine all the pot smokers and LSD experimenters with their pocket book copies, discussing it in parks and in college dorms. It was the right time, wasn't it, really. If it had been published in the 50s, it would have been too much for people to consider and Robert would have unquestionably been labelled a nut and shipped off to cuckoo land.

A young Robert Monroe.

You could almost believe that the whole 60s hippy movement was manufactured or, at the least, infiltrated and steered; directed. And Robert alone couldn't have known how his book was to be received up until that point. So I just hope that this wasn't part of a scheme, tying neatly with the New Age movement that grew out of that time. Also, the Monroe Institute (which Robert established in the early 70s) has had links to United States Military Intelligence, who, at that time, were interested in staring goats to death, walking through walls and just generally a ton of mind-blowing psychological operations - which you can read about in Jon Ronson's The Men Who Stare At Goats.

The redeeming factor is that I can relate to many of the experiences that Robert Monroe mentions in Journeys Out of the Body, so I know that what he says isn't complete fabrication. I know that if it has any downside, it's because it is misleading through means of disinformation, though I can make no certain claim of this.

It was so incredible to read though because of its relatability. I've had similar experiences since I was around the age of fourteen and they've only intensified (as I've harnessed them) over the years. My own experiences transpired of their own accord, so it's not a simple matter of power of suggestion. Aside from what I can relate to, I trust a lot of what Monroe's saying and feel that he recorded his experiences to the best of his abilities and if there are any discrepancies they're down to the brain's interpretation of events. This book is pretty much gospel for me, there's a lot to sink your teeth into.

The most profound element wasn't the reality of out-of-body experiences, but how many answers and solutions his experiences and subsequent writings provided for me, it's helped tie together a lot of loose ends, even if temporarily. The only thing I wish is that I'd been posting on here when I started reading it, as I've had lots of overwhelming thoughts I could have shared. It's taken from around March/April until now to finish it, I re-read quite a few chapters and took notes, allowed my mind to wonder/wander and absorb the information, it's been a buzz. Oh wow, it's been such a buzz.

I've yet to read his two other books, Far Journeys (1985) and Ultimate Journey (1994), so it'll be interesting to see how his validity holds. Apparently, according to some reviews, they get a bit far out (or further out, depending on your initial stance). That's part of the enjoyment, I can't tell you how enthusiastic I am to get around to them! Before that though I'm going to begin with Kundalini Tales by Richard Sauder - I read an excerpt online here and thought it would be worth getting hold of a copy. Richard seems to have had a respect for Robert Monroe's work, however, as he noted himself, the connections between the Monroe Institute and the military intelligence are dubious and worth being aware of. Still, this could be innocent enough and it'd be unwise to discount Monroe's work completely on that connection alone, and I know firsthand that much of what he says in Journeys Out of the Body is truthful. Additionally, if a government orders an institute to comply, there are surely two options: comply or decline and expect to be met with hostility.

I already know one of the subject matters in Far Journeys, since I read a couple of reviews on it. Apparently it delves into the topic of energy harvesting (or the peculiarly termed 'loosh farming'), which I've been fascinated with for a few months and I didn't realise he had written about the subject in one of his books, so that's a bit of synchronicity. Until I entertained the concept of some of these 'wackier' theories, I totally avoided them, considering them to be ridiculous. It seems like natural progression to move on to them and give them a chance, well, that's what I've done and I can't ignore how much this resonated with me. It'll be compelling to read what Monroe had to say on the matter way back then. The fact that the military were in correspondence with him, does that insinuate that his works were heavily propagandised or does it indicate that they knew he had valuable information and therefore were using him to obtain additional data? I'm in two minds about it, but would suspect if it's not just for the latter then it's for both of those purposes. The U.S. military clearly had a vested interest in the Monroe Institute, as they confirmedly sent officers there in the 70s and 80s for out-of-body training.

An elderly Robert Monroe.

Robert Monroe died in 1995, aged 79. His research has been continued by members of his family. The Monroe Institute still exists to this day and is based in Virginia, United States, with facilitators of the programs to be found in many countries.

Fear Loves This Place

Fear is something that we all face in our lives, on a personal level - we all have hurdles to overcome - and on a macrocosmic scale. Irrational fears are important only when they are faced, accepted, experienced, comprehended or rationalised. It's like a depth from which springs forth tests or puzzles that we must solve. And what if there were no wrong answers, just our own interpretations of the situations, the way only we are biologically or environmentally prepared to have? The reward being that we choose to be tested; we develop and flourish.

Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering its a feather bed. - Terence McKenna, excerpt from 'Unfolding the Stone'.

In that sense, fear is only beneficial to us when we embrace it. It becomes a catalyst for change and growth. Creatures of habit that we are, many of us secretly fear change. So a fear of fear itself, a fear of what it might do, what it might present. And it's on a larger scale that we're kept in this state of flux, this psychological space, not really knowing what we're afraid of - we just are - even if we're no longer conscious of it - it has become an automatic response. The media and the powers that be employ such techniques to psychologically weaken us and dominate over us. There is no worth in accepting that this occurs without doing something about it. People cough up the same pathetic excuses, like when they say there's nothing that can be done. They've accepted defeat, they've been suppressed, they're now a part of the problem and there is nothing admirable about that. The truth is we can do anything and everything from an individual perspective. We don't have to be party to their politics; lets focus on the personal. There are always systems it seems, some form of hierarchy within nature, but right now we have to stop and realise that we don't need them when they do nothing to serve and elevate us.

What is it about fear though? Why is it so drawn to this place? The obvious answer is that it's being used as a means to weaken people, so they're more dependent on the system that enforces it. This is basic psychology. I suppose with all my research in the last year and ten months, it has brought me to a point recently where I'm not satisfied with the conclusions I've drawn so far. I'm thinking increasingly outside of the box, which is something I've always done, but in terms of research I consider it to be the natural progression when one has not found the answers they're looking for. It's at least important to accept other possibilities. Consequently, I've been entertaining the idea that the hierarchy and control might extend beyond this realm of existence. Is it possible that the elite group have an intrinsic need to deal us this fate? Could our fear and emotional energy be essential to them on some incorporeal level?

From a psychological standpoint, experiments have been undertaken and the findings imply that there are abnormalities in the brain structure of psychopaths. And a disproportionate amount of psychopaths can be found in high places, because of their ruthless and predatory nature. Good introductory reading material on the subject is The Psychopath Test by Jon Ronson. It seems as likely a reason as any for why these leaders are doing what they're doing, but it wouldn't rule out the possibility of them working in cahoots with interdimensional entities. Not necessarily consciously either; chances are they'd be as exploited as we are. What if something is feeding on our fear? What if something is using our energy, our life-force, as a food source?

Attracted to Infertility

This morning I woke with these words in mind: 'attracted to infertility'. It's not been uncommon in the last year or so to wake with words, sentences, ideas, answers or theories. I can usually apply them at once to my current situation, they'll relate to where I'm at on this journey of mine. I understand this as information learnt in the 'second state' and then passed successfully or unsuccessfully from the subconscious to the conscious mind. That doesn't mean it'll make sense, it can be a mistranslation by the brain. Sometimes it'll be symbols or a sense of something, an impression on the conscious mind which I suppose is able to be observed more thoughtfully.

Naturally I turned my attention to the dream I'd had which preceded the words, not necessarily the last dream before waking, but the one that was clearest in my mind. There was nothing spectacular about it, though it was pleasant enough. The predominant theme I took from it was one of acceptance, generosity and warmth. The fact that I seek this in reality and have yet to find it, and in the dream I was in contact with this - so it was an expression of a desire of mine; an unmet or unfulfilled desire. It was a brief encounter with a friendship group who were so accepting, unique and diverse, very warm and loving and responsive and generous. I think I was attracted to them, especially the females, not for sexual reasons, but for this quality they had. It's not something you can fabricate. Does this translate to 'attracted to infertility'? That it's not about the physical; it's about admiration and a host of pre-existing sensations that most of us have forgotten about or been made to forget. That it's not about sexual responses; it's about passion and compassion and fulfilment. It's about intellectual stimulation. It's about pure attraction as it is, no more. Though, if that is the meaning of the waking words, it's an abstract way of putting it. The subconscious mind is certainly a mystery to the conscious mind.

Then I thought of the moon as a symbol of fertility and wondered what would be the antithesis to this. I've yet to find one. Attracted to a light or dark side of life?

Or maybe it was a way of warning me of the effect of my deteriorating health. I've had a cyst on my thyroid (which I presume to be overactive or underactive thyroid) for over a year and still haven't sought medical advice, which is irresponsible I realise. Apparently, upon doing a quick search, poor thyroid function may affect fertility. In fact, what does poor thyroid health not affect? It's of crucial importance to the continued well-being of the body. So, are the words 'attracted to infertility' more literal, implying that the longer I leave this disease untreated, the more damage I'm doing? Attracted to the opposite of creation: chaos and self-destruction?

Television for Paedophiles, Deadheads, and Baptism for Idiots

While I was writing Saturn's Influence - Them Crafty Rugrats yesterday, I found a rather queer article on a website for Landover Baptist Church. The article is titled 'Rugrats: Television For Pedophiles'. I was thinking how extremist it was, laughable, just typical of some of these religious fanatics, so I thought I'd write a short post to make light of it. I had my title decided upon - 'Television for Paedophiles, Deadheads, and Baptism for Idiots', a sweeping generalisation - and had begun writing when I decided to check their homepage. Gift shop. Thongs. More precisely, a "What would Jesus do?" thong. Book Burning Club. Prayer Squad. And my personal favourite, Sin Patrol. Haha. It was around then that I realised it's not a real institution at all, it's a fictional church based in a fictional town. Satirical humour, which I'm a fan of (along with surrealism), and I fell for it! But that's because it's so representative of Christian fundamentalism and the religious right-wing, especially when you isolate an article from the rest of the website, it is very believable. And yet actual religious values can seem so archaic, so repellent, so unbelievable. Amazing really.

If it had been a genuine article, then I would have been making a point on how these organisations tend to use tactics to instil fear and divert attention away from their own sordid practices. Because while I'm aware of the perverse undertones that are bubbling beneath the mainstream, it doesn't justify the outrageous claims that these kinds of religious extremists come out with. In fact it seeks to ruin what truth there is behind it all. Extremists like this are frightened of their own humanness, feelings and impulses, so they point to faults everywhere but within themselves, if it means they don't have to face their own demons. In that respect, Satanism appears to have a better handle when it teaches that we must first give in to our carnal desires and indulge if we are to learn and evolve. Only it's not as simple as that, there are so many other factors at play, and on a base level it would just lead to overindulgence, there'd be no moderation. Things are bad enough as they are, the last thing we need is for civilisation to revert back to a lesser state, though that looks to be on the cards. Societal collapse is surely to be the last of our worries, it might even be the answer to all our problems.

If it had been a genuine article, then I would have been making a point on how these organisations tend to use tactics to instil fear and divert attention away from their own sordid practices. But it wasn't, so I'm not.

Saturn's Influence - Them Crafty Rugrats

And so begins the acknowledgement of Saturn imagery and symbolism in pop culture and the world around us. I first became aware of this phenomenon a few months ago and have since noted how pervasive it is. Yesterday it crossed my mind that in the 90's children's programme Rugrats, the character Chuckie wore a t-shirt with the planet Saturn on it - cool, right. When I did a quick search to clarify, I found an image of Chuckie and the others in their playpen. The association was instantaneous; the shape of the playpen in the shot resembles the Sigil of Saturn (or Seal of Saturn). I don't consider that I'm reading into it overly so, as I'm not very familiar with the symbolism yet, but it's the first thing that struck me. I had to compare both the pattern of the playpen and the Occult symbol, that's how unfamiliar I am with it currently, but it does bear a resemblance.

Chuckie, Saturn t-shirt, framed by... the Seal of Saturn?

Seal of Saturn.

It's quite a horribly complex symbol from this angle, but when you tilt your head to the right slightly, viewed as a diamond with an arrow pointing inwards from either side, that's exactly how it looks in the Rugrats screencap. The only thing that is missing is the line that runs through the centre, and maybe it would be pushing it a bit to suggest that his arms are supposed to indicate that connection, especially as they don't extend beyond the diamond. It's the Saturn t-shirt that gets me, that combined with the pattern that looks not too dissimilar to the Seal - coincidence?

This is merely one example I'm presenting of the phenomenon - 'Saturn worship'. Really it's just an observation and I want to keep observing and I will better understand the meaning at the appropriate time. But here has been the first example for you, as it was the most recent brought to my attention.

A wider view of the playpen, as it was intended.

Some interesting patterns on the show, I guess they are rather appealing. Notice, too, the cube/hexagon (which ties in with Saturn's hexagon and 'black cube worship') and the ball with a pentagram on it. Just an observation; indeed, these are also common shapes to children.

The rugrats, the checkered floor, the mother's weird hairdo...

Some of the parents, the checkered trousers, and the Venus symbol on Betty's sweater.

I think the designer had a thing for specific patterns - it's good, they're good, kudos! Children also respond well to certain imagery, which can encourage - or, god forbid, inhibit - their development.

Angelica casually wearing a 'Hail Satan' t-shirt and flashing the sign of the horns.

Angelica casually wearing a 'Hail Satan' t-shirt though, that's a little more concerning. What kind of an angel is this little brat? I was thinking it might have been from the series that followed Rugrats, which was known as All Grown Up! (or Barely Legal...), but no, it seems to be from Rugrats. Not that it makes much difference; it's a children's show. You follow it as a kid, you might follow it into early teenhood, that's the purpose of a spin-off. You follow. Sort of like Disney presenting sweet, innocent Miley Cyrus as Hannah Montana before taking her through to adolescence and destroying the image, not a moment to spare. Sort of. But this is something else, another spectacle entirely, slightly less warped...

 

Anyway, that's enough for today's post. I'm in the mood to listen to some No Doubt. Hm, which album? Ah yes, Return of Saturn.

 

Click on the image to see how the album cover is alive with symbolism.