Follow Your Heart

In the preface, Richard Sauder refers to reality as the 'reality game' in which we're all players. It's a competitive world, that's for sure. Not easy for those of us who don't wish to compete. It's like an extended lesson of Physical Education. Blood sports day - no I can't, I forgot my kit! Not good enough, get in the arena!

I've entertained the idea that we may be plugged in, tuned in, projected into this system - not unlike a computer simulation, yes, something like what is shown in The Matrix (which I haven't seen for years and years and personally am not interested to). Of note, the Wachowskis also co-directed a film called Cloud Atlas and are directing a new film titled Jupiter Ascending, both of which seem to involve themes of body/soul/energy harvesting. Imagine we are on another plane of existence and we've agreed to come here, everything was agreed to beforehand, we were wired up to machines... wouldn't that make the most sense, provide the most answers upon dying/waking from this experience? Maybe the one rule is that no outside intervention is allowed, the simulation has to be allowed to pan out, even if things get out of control or there are glitches in the system. What if other beings elsewhere could hack into this 'reality', hijack it and use it for their own gain? Altogether it's not something I believe, just something I've considered.

The reality game. Boot camp. Mind, body and soul training. Here for educational purposes and/or hedonistic pursuits.

We're here to learn, whatever it might be that we each learn - even if it's a plan on how to escape this social circle! I think it's quite true that this is a meeting of heaven and hell, life is what you make it. We either accept it or we are tormented by it - that rests in our hands.

We mustn't live in the past or the future, otherwise we miss our chance in the present to do something worthwhile. We should live in the moment. We should, yet some of us are determined to figure out why we're here and what it all means, I know I am. I'm not going to rest until I reach a better understanding of the situation; obviously I want to keep busy, it's confusing and at times painful not knowing why this is happening.

Kundalini is the energy that purportedly resides at the base of the spine according to Yogic philosophy, it lies dormant, coiled like a serpent, until awakened. Chapter one of Kundalini Tales, the first few lines made me raise my eyebrows incredulously. Richard Sauder recalls his kundalini awakening or experience on this occasion in 1992, when a male voice gleefully proclaimed "Party hearty!" He lived alone at the time, so there was no simple explanation for the voice, but it was immediately followed by a short, intense kundalini-energised episode. It's absurd, what kind of an individual would say something like that? It's very strange, but to be honest I know that many of my own experiences have been unusual and would obviously be regarded as such by others. It's just not a normal thing to say, nor would you expect to hear it. Did the individual behind the disembodied voice not consider that his words might disturb or frighten someone? Was there not a more thoughtful way of 'introducing' the kundalini experience? Clearly it didn't worry Sauder, but someone else could be expected to react differently. Perhaps 'it' knew that Sauder was mentally and spiritually prepared, as he'd been fascinated for years by the kundalini and had made efforts to activate it. It was a gleeful voice, so presumably that's a good sign.

What I'm having to reckon with is a mix of the occult (that which is hidden, concealed) and what Christianity has to say on the matter (being currently the most prevalent religion in the Western world). They may both be right. I was reading Christian views on mysticism, how they believe kundalini awakening or 'third eye' opening, for example, to be influenced by demonic forces. I think it's more likely to be both positive and negative forces that one is subjected to. Rather than completely abandoning occult study, one should proceed with careful consideration - knowing the potential risks and acting responsibly, as activation of chakra points provides a channel for all kinds of forces. I suppose that if you open yourself to the light, you're also susceptible to the darkness as well.

Richard Sauder at his present understanding (when Kundalini Tales was written and published in 1998) believes the kundalini not to be God, but possibly a servant of God; a sort of archangel. I don't know enough about it yet, but was under the impression that it is an aspect of the soul - what with the chakra points and all - and therefore corresponding to the celestial in that sense - a personalised form of. Enough speculation though, I shall have to see for myself.